I wanted to thank everyone here for there support and wonderful advice during a terrifying time for me. I know there are others on this site that need help and prayer also. I have not decided whether to have the surgery or not, eventually I probably will have too, Sunny you helped when you said two other people you know did it and came out alright that was encouraging.
I would probably NOT have it if it just were my hoarseness and very weak voice, but the "wheezing" from my vocal cords are scaring me, I have never had that before, I have had trouble with my voice for years off and on but never this bad or with this wheezing. I may get a second opinion, but if the polyp is large enough to cause wheezing it probably should come off, I just wish I was not so terrified of the surgery which my Mother died of, also the complications and after the surgery I will be alone a lot and scared, I wont even be able to talk or call the paramedics if my throat starts to bleed I will have no voice, and there is a chance the surgery will NOT work or make my voice worse, but the actual procedure is what is scaring me the most. The ENT said he "did not think it was cancer:" a little reassuring but hardly a clean bill of health, there is something very wrong when a person loses their ability to speak and wheezes thru their vocal cords, I just do not know what too do??
Do I live like this hoping the polyp will go away and pray it does{that happens sometimes} but they say surgery is usually the normal way, I doubt they would even clear me for surgery right now, I might have to lose some weight and my BP is very high, I just want to put it out of my mind for Easter, if I can do that, I just want to forget about it and pretend its not there which I know never works. Thank you all for your help, I am very very depressed and your words help me thru the day.
