I'm helped by people each time they post in many ways. I benefit by learning how others are similar and different. Also, I like when people respond, since life gets isolating a lot of the time, as I search for ways to connect with people, around my social uneasiness. When I write, I think I benefit by giving to others, and I feel competent and confident, and can build on those attributes.
I know how difficult it was to start posting, and respect others' uneasiness beginning, or not posting at all. For a long time I was part of the a large silent audience out there, and a lot of life events occurred which would have been easier with my posting.
It used to sound trite, but our weaknesses are really strengths if we know how to leverage them for our benefit, and society's benefit
It's ok if you don't know exactly why you write, the important thing is that you do! Sharing your thoughts, worries , concerns is better than internalizing them. We are here to listen, offer support and help when you need it.
I have been thinking about the why..and Does it help..
Why do I keep coming and writing to who ever is here..One thing I do know is that I am not writing to whom ever is here.
I am just writing thats all, not to anyone really. To myself mostly. Self talk I guess. Not sure of the why, maybe it helps me to think things out or it helps me to talk about the anxiety or panic when I am feeling it. Maybe I feel less scared and alone in it when I write it out here. Maybe I feel like a person instead of a non person. Less invisible! Less scared! Less lost and alone!
Does writing here help me..I don't know..Sometimes I think it does other times I don't know..
Thank you for taking the time to share your experience with thickening of the heart muscle..Your compassion has helped me so much and lessened my fears..Kind words are such good medicine...Your prayers are welcome as always and on this coming Tuesday too..Not sure what my reward will be yet..Maybe I will relax with my quilting magazines and get out some of my fabric and lay it out and see what I can come up with..
So how have you been doing yourself with your new blood pressure meds? How is the gardening and planting going? I hope your making sure you don't over do it and resting are as needed..
Cheering you on and saying a prayer for you too tonight...
Hi Red: I'm sorry for your worries. I hope you do have the test. I also had thickening of the heart muscle, but am fine now. i know how worriesome and scary it can be. I felt the same way too and even if we can't understand 100% what another person is going through, I can empathise as it sounds similar to what I had. I'm rooting for you! Once it's over, you'll feel so relieved. What reward do you have lined up? Mine was being able to stay home and read in the back screened-in porch and look over my flowers and just "be" with my dog beside me.
Cheering you on and saying a prayer, I'll be thinking of you on Tues.
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