Its just so frustrating. I enjoy everything so much more when I'm feeling "normal" (even work) and then out of nowhere my mind starts to wander and I think "uh oh, this feels too nice, this isn't right, I should be freaking out right now". Why can't I just let things go? Why do I hold onto the anxious thoughts an feelings instead of holding onto the good feelings? Does this mean I'll never get to be anxiety free? Sorry for sounding so whiny, I'm just starting to feel like I'm at the end of my rope.
Thanks for the encouragement though, it does really help.
Anxious_in-Toronto i can definately relate to you. I feel like my body is so used to having anxiety so it feels weird to actually be 'relaxed' or whatever the word means. Like u said, sometimes when i actually feel 'normal' and am enjoying myself.....suddenly i think about my anxiety and it comes back RIGHT AWAY. It like, who the heck invited you into my head and body? lol. It just comes in without knocking hehe
Its really annoying and frustrating because i miss what its like to be 'normal.' So i totally feel the same way you do! Hang in there girl!
Anxious,
Stay strong. Give your mind and body time to adjust. Try not to over analyze everthing. When feeling this way, try some relaxation or meditation techniques.
Keep us posted,
Melanie
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I know this may seem weird, but I almost think that I don't want to get rid of my anxiety. The moment I start to feel relaxed and "normal" all of a sudden all of these anxious thoughts and symptoms hit me really hard. Especially those unreality feelings as that seems to be what's been bothering me the most lately. For example, I was actually having a good day today and I felt like I was going to make it without any symptoms, but then the I start to think that I don't feel right if I'm not feeling anxious. Does anyone understand that? Its like I've been feeling anxious for so long that has become my "normal". If I'm not anxious I feel like something is wrong, therefore I can't ever relax. This is so frustrating and my husband gets upset too because he tries to help me to relax and as soon as I do I start to panic. I would really appreciate hearing anyone else's point of view on this.
Thanks.
