Hi Jo, Thanks for sharing all of these experiences here with us. You have the right idea - come here to vent and share what you are feeling. Sometimes just writing out your thoughts can be very helpful. I agree with Dive, you certainly do have a lot on your plate recently! Good for you for staying as strong as you have. Try not to see this as a setback. You can get back into the program and work through your feelings of panic and anxiety. Take care and keep us posted on your progress, Casey ________________________ The PC Support Team

Hi, I'm sorry to hear about the illness in your family. Though, to me it sounds like you made a giant stride. The illness of a family member would make anyone upset, I've had quite a few people close to me recently become ill. But, the fact that you were doing well for so long is a definite positive and, for me, would act as reinforcement that I'm on the way to getting better. I'm sure others will share their thoughts, probably more helpful ones than mine, but I just try to use the setbacks like roadsigns to see how far I've come. Tallglassofwater

Hello Jo :) I am sorry to hear you had a tough time. Sounds like you have had A LOT on you plate lately!!! Wow, I really admire you for managing so well with everything that is going on around you! I think the way you are dealing with everything is very impressive and takes a lot of courage. I also think you are being too hard on yourself. So you had an attack , who wouldn't with everything you are going through. I know people who don't suffer from anxiety who would have an attacks after everything you have gone through! You really should look at everything you have done lately and pat yourself on the back in my honest opinion! Be kind to yourself you are doing great. I know off days like that where a big attack comes really suck (Ihate those days soooo badly!!!!!) and I am sorry you had to go through that but it in no way diminishes how much I admire how you are handling all of it. Anyway, hang in there and keep up the good work :) -Diva

Hi Everyone, I have been doing fantastic lately and my Husband has been so happy especially as I have been driving the car 3 or 4 times a week on my own that he a huge thing for me as I used to have a lot of panic attacks always driving as I had a car accident, today my mother in law popped over and I followed her out but my eyes have been blurry today (I have floaters on them sometimes they seems worse than other times) and a pain down my left arm I did a hard work out on Sunday night so maybe it is cause of that I had in in the night but I was thinking its my heart or a blood clot and did'nt want to go out today for a couple hours work as I work for myself, I struggled all the way to my mother in laws house feeling not with it and not able to focus properly when she turned of I turned round and had to pull over and ring my Husband, I could'nt feel myself from head to toe kept scratching myself and could hardly feel it, was shaking really bad, felt like I was really going to faint erevything went a blur was shure I was going to faint on my own where I did'nt know the roads that well. I spoke to my Husband for a few minutes and then headed back home I was meant to do couple hours of work, so had to make an axcuse to that person (I work for myself) I still feel a bit shakey and not with it, but I have to drive again this afternoon to take my friends some to his gym class it is only up the road but I don't want to and she will get funny with me if I do not take him. We have had a lot of stress the past few months my Husbands Fathers Cancer came back and all they can do is treat it this time they said he might only have couple years on treatment then to make it unbelieveable stress we found out he has been naughty with someone else for several years and no of us knew about it so we have been so distraught over everything then my Husband got ill and we thought he had viral meningitis and hes my rock (he ok now) every night we were at in laws to 2 3 in morning and working some nights up all night. I cannot believe I went like that out of the blue today I have been so confident through everything when I could have freaked. I did'nt want to mention anything about things that have gone on, but just needed to get it out. My father in lw is a retired doctor from th