Hi
This is my first post in the forum, so: Hi everyone, I'm Becky.
I had my first panic attack jus three weeks ago, and joined here a few days later. Thinking about it, I think I've had smaller panic attacks earlier in life, but none as massive as the ones ive had the past weeks (four all together).
When i get the attacks i feel very light-headed and dizzy, as if im about to faint, so i lie down and just think to myself "ok, panic, show me what you've got" and it disappears after a short while.
The program here has helped me a lot in understanding my panic and how to cope.
I study to become an actor, and i amright now working very hard with letting go, loosing control and not be afraid of having no control over myself. This has always been a grat fear of mine. I feel as iof i have so many emotions and things going on inside, that if i dont spend most of my time controlling myself i might go crazy.
Sometimes I feel these pangs of fear, and think things like "maybe im crazy. maybe it's just a matter of time berfore I end up like one of the crazy singing ladies on the street".
In my mind I know i can loose control without going mad, that i am not psychotic and fully capable of letting go, but my body is in terror. It feels as if every fibre in my being has been depending on this very hard self-control, and these rather destructive behaviours of holding on to my shell has become my security, and every inch of letting go make me feel like im dying and going mad.
Do you have any advice?
