Sounds like things are taken a negative turn, temporarily.
I’ve cycled into a similar pattern with GAD, with negative thinking, finding it hard to do things like go out, after a number of major life events.
Fortunately, for now, I can work incrementally with someone and make progresss, and eventually challenge my negative thinking, which is keeping me inside, fearful of where I park my car if I do go outside, of even seeing family members outside my parents home or acknowledging achievements. Yesterday I spent the day in pj’s. I left work sometime ago, and people used to just laugh at me since my fears were comicable to me, but I could leave that toxic situation, with support and a career which was close enough to the end of my need to leave. I don’t have any friends, and have lived my whole life in one large city, haven’t seen a movie since 2007, rarely eat out(and could afford to), and the best I can do is McDonald’s(hold the tartar sauce on the fish fillet and hold the salt on the fries...in case you send me one!).
Once a mean-spirited woman suggested i should be perfect after all my hard work in CBT, etc. Another person once asked me if I could speak, since I didn’t respond in time to her impatient question! Ouch...
There’s a lot of positive support out here, and around us, and with a few small steps, with a focus on incremental growth , we can steer ourselves eventually back on course. There’s so much I have to draw on, but when I had to overcome my added weight, the wonderful dietician recommended “progress” over “perfection”.
With a name like Spartan, maybe the Helen of Troy will be released in you...how would that feel?
