Hi, I can really empathise with this one !! I only had a really bad time with panic about 4 years ago, which lasted a year, and with a lot of help, from family, and this site and its programme, I pulled through and have now been panic free since then. They seemed to come out of the blue, but gradually I realised that a lot of it was actually caused by my marriage being in a bad state at that time. My husband has a fairly dominant personality, and at times I felt intimidated by him ( not physically ) emotionally. It was a huge step for me to admit this to myself let alone anyone else, and I too had thoughts of leaving him. Eventually we talked tho', lots, and dealt with a lot of issues that should have been talked about a long time before. It certainly didn't change overnight, the hardest part was getting the reins back once I was recovering, as being 'ill' gave him a lot of control, he was in effect my carer for a year. So we have remained together, but our relationship has definately changed for the better, and now I know I would be strong enough to stand on my own two feet if I had to. Maybe, with all the tension that an unsupportive partner can bring, you may feel much better without him, but only you can know this for certain. Its a big step, but we're usually much stronger than we give ourselves credit for ( and I'm really talking to us women here !!! ). Making the decision is quite often the hardest part, but if thats what you decide to do, surround yourself with people that can give you some extra support for a while, and know that you can do it without him, and maybe even do it better !! Whatever you decide, I wish you the best, because thats what we all deserve !!
