Hi,
I am having a bad time just now coping with derealisation, I have been having horrible dreams, and even in the dreams I feel unreal, so when I wake up I am in a real state, I mainly get these feeling at night so during the day I worry sick about the night coming, I have tried to distract myself and put the thoughts out of my head as I know I am setting myself up for it to happen, however no matter how hard I try, I just can't.
I have 2 young children aged 4 and 18 months, it's coming up to our family holiday, when we booked it, I thought, it's ages away I'll be fine ( I don't want my kids to miss out on fun times because of this horrible thing) we are going on sat 14th August and I am so scared, has anyone else been in this situation, and how did they cope.
I do know that I am going! My oldest son would be crushed but how on earth am I going to manage I am so scared, I usually talk to my husband about stuff like this, but I feel that I would be ruining things for him also, he would just be on edge all the time waiting for me to go into one.
This panic disorder has turned me into a very selfish person, always thinking of how I will be ok, I hate it.
I do find this site very helpful and all of the tips and hints I have received have been a great comfort to me, but this is a very trying time, can anyone please please advise me, have you been in a similar situation and how on earth did you get through it.
My son is so excited, it is breaking my heart I want to feel his excitment but can't I am so desperate. I feel like going to my doc and asking him for something to get me through the holiday. I just don't know, any advice would be really appreciated, thank you all so
much.
Vikki, 30
Scotland
