I really sorry for the loss of your stepfather a couple weeks ago I loss my Dad and like you felt Anxious, depress,and in the top of that the Panic attacks!!!i can imagine how you feel right now just i encorage you be or try been strong in this difficult moment, deal with a loss of somebody who you love is sad.i would like to share something with you, my Dad knew that I have Panic Attacks and when i went to the funeral in Barcelona he leave me a Bible ( i don,t read the bible and I'm not a religios person) anyways he mark something that he wanted to read by myself and i did now please you can read too "Observe intently the birds of the heaven,because they do not sow seed or reap or gather into storehouses;still your heavenly Father feeds them.Are you not more than they are? Who of you by being ANXIOUS can add one cubit to his life span?." well Rachelle my heart is with you in this dificult moment. Al.