Hi Brabak! Well, this certainly sounds familiar to me! This is anxiety. I also have a constant fear of choking. For example, I worry going to restuarants with others cause i fear that i will choke and die etc. But to tell you the truth, you will NOT choke. And so what if you do? Big deal, your body is used to choking once in a while (for example, on a drink etc). Its normal. Everyone chokes once in a while.
To tell you the truth, i choked 2 days ago while drinking. thats one of my WORST fears....is choking and not being able to breath. But i really think this happened for a reason cause God wanted to show me that its NOT big deal. Well, i got sooo scared. I didnt' want to show anyone on the table but it was pretty obvious. So i just drank water, cleared my throat a couple of times........and 2 seconds i was fine. It was the after shock that was bad for me.......I STOPPED drinking the whole night hehe. But then i realized that its not a big deal....that it happens once in a while. I also looked back at what just happened and realized that i GOT THROUGH IT JUST FINE. So why should i fear it? I'm working on this. Its hard, but i'm working on a positive attitude. What you are feeling is normal with anxieyt. But try not to let it bother you so much.......u wont' choke. Just eat and you will be fine! While you are eating, try to think of pleasant moments.....rather than choking. U know what i mean?
About the doctor thing. I was at the doctor 2 weeks ago for feeling tired all the time. He told me that its part of anxiety....cause all this worrying and stress causes us to feel tired with no appetite. Now i dont' know if its the same in your situation...but i would guess its anxiety! Dont' worry. Just eat, relax, do things you like doing, and u will be fine! We all believe in you!!!!
