Thanks Ashley, actually I think this set back made me stronger and more confident that I can manage the attacks when they come.
I have realized that they only come for minutes and then goes away, kind of like hiccups. So why be scared of them?I do hate the feeling I get when it happens but I am not scared anymore....
Maybe these setbacks are anxieties way of making sure our CBT is intact at all times. I was finally reassured that I can do it. It certainly helped.
Please don't take this as a
failure. Slips like this are completely normal and actually a normal
part of the healing process. From what you have said it sounds like
this attack was to be expected. You made a big change and now there are new challenges you have to face. It will be a challenge but you have the skills and knowledge to get through it.
Again, remember, this is normal don't let it bring you down. It is how you bounce back from slips like this that matter. Be gentle with yourself and recognise this is a temporary set back. Look at this as a learning opportunity. What did you learn from this? What do you need to change? Where can you grow?
Try not to focus on the worry. Focus on how good you will feel once you master this challenge. You can do this! We will be here to support you every step of the way.
40 minutes would be about as far as it is to the farther village here. A bit of a drive and because it is all country it would take some vigilance, watching for deer on the road and slowing down when I met big trucks on the corner. But I like to drive so these things are more distraction than hazard. I feel like I am in control just being able to do it, even when it is snowing or raining heavy. It is my decision and I'm the boss. There is a big difference between cautious and worried or scared.
If you turn down the dash lights you can see better at night. What would make the drive more pleasant? What do you think is the difference between you and me? Why do you think you panic and I don't any more? Is the fear real. The panic obviously is. Is there a difference between day and night? You can't move again so you need a reason to want to drive, right now you drive because you have to and that is negative. You need a coping skill that will give you control. With control there is no reason to panic so you won't.
I remember so many times I was mad after a panic attack because I knew I could do better, it was just so frustrating. I new I could find a way to take back control. I knew there was no logical reason for panic and worse I knew others were not panicking. That made me real mad. Mad enough to fight back.
I won and there is nothing special about me except determination.
Sooooo.... After a long time I got another panic attack. I feel devastated and scared all over again. Atleast now I have the knowledge that I'm not going crazy but hey it certainly feels like I'm losing my mind.
I brought it on myself, I knew it was a far drive now everyday becoz I moved 40 mins from my work, I thought it was a great idea moving but boy was I wrong. Before the long drive I was already anxious.... Then when I was in the middle of country with no lights I was even more anxious and got 2 panic attacks a few minutes apart. I tried my best to control them, they got a little crazy for a few mins but I talked myself out of them. Now I'm just really dispapointed I gave myself one. And now I don't feel like I can drive this way anymore and I've already moved. I'm so disappointed but at the same time I got through it and now I feel like I've come out okay. Kind of like, this is all you have panic attack? This is what I've been avoiding and being scared of?
Help please.... I need some light. I'm scared these anxiety and panic will cause something go worse...health wise and all. I'm feeling like I don't want to disappoint my family. They like it here but with these attacks... What should i do? I was doing so good.... I hate this.
