I always talk to myself, If I feel wierd, I say " you can do it" "you're fine" "you just didnt sleep well, thats why you are dizzy, its not anxiety" or " you didnt eat a proper lunch so yo'ure fine" " you need this, just stick thru it". thats when i'm feeling anxious about something..It really helps!!!!
To carry on the saga, I became stalled in my software testing and my efforts to get unstalled were fruitless. I couldn't get feedback from an important director regarding my research report.
True to form, my initial reaction was panic. I entered in the symptom tracker. I was off work for two days essentially because I believed that these two projects were supposed to be finished by the end of the week and weren't going to be. When I finally talked with my job coach and then my supervisor, it was just a matter of switching off to other tasks though I detected that they would've like me to have those things completed but my panic reaction wasn't particularly productive.
Anyway, taking a week off for summer vacation and already have a sunburn. Hopefully I can get some good perspective and perhaps develop some routines that I can implement to assist with work. My job coach and supervisor have already set up an arrangement where they keep each other posted on my status. It's a little wierd to be under such scrutiny. Talk about social anxiety but it is all aimed at keeping me on the job and functioning with minimum disruptions.
johnyO,
All you can do is try your best. Everyone makes errors and may miss things at time. Use what you've learn't thus far to complete the task to the best of your potential, being hard on yourself and doubting your capabilities will only limit your possibilities.
Sylvie, Bilingual Health Educator
I'm back at work again, though they have down-sized my duties in the sense that I don't deal with clients as much as my coworkers. Essentially my social anxiety was just bubbling having to cope with critical, high expectations and managing communication with clients. So now I am performing software testing. I still need to have fairly challenging communication with the programmers especially since I have to tell them where I found errors. And an internet research project, where the real challenge will come in writing a report, as I discovered last time, everyone has a different idea of what level of detail is important and making suggestions or recommendations that don't jive with other decision makers can ruffle feathers.
So through this all, I have to be conscious of any negativity around my abilities, my judgement, daily basic attitude. It is real easy to fall into the trap that I am just being a pest to the programmers calling their attention to trivial matters in the new software. I am always fearful that I am missing huge peices of information from my research project and that will colour the whole report with an air of immaturity. And I am dealing with one group of clients and I am not content with the level of assertiveness that I am applying and our teleconference meetings remind me of the wild wild west.
