Oh yeah, I can relate and explain mine.
I hang onto panic. I hang onto anxiety. I hang onto things that bother me. I hang onto past obsessions. I also hang onto a fear that if I have a panic attack it's going to send me into a deep depression like it has a few times in the past.
What's interesting to note about my issues is that I really don't know what life is like without worry, anxiety and fear of loss of control. I can have a constant worry that feels like it's never going to end and then I start to feel good and ignore any methods that may have got me there (meditation, CBT, etc).
My wife once told me that I was worrying about something because I was looking for something to worry about. She could not have been more right. It's like I hang onto it.
I worry on the way to work that I might have an attack at work. "Worry, worry, worry," as it says in the audio program I use for relaxation.
I hope this helps the thread. I don't worry all the time, but I wish the time I spend worrying was spent laughing. I do find when I laugh that I worry less.
David
