At 60 + days I am starting to forget how awful it was to be a smoker. I'm forgetting about the embarrassment, the stigma, the smell, the constant need to smoke, all those reasons that I quit. This is not a good thing.
The other day, a relative talked about planning a big reunion at a motel...and said they would get me a smoking room. (I was thinking...Oh good...Nobody ever remembers to get me a smoking room - Ooops...I don't smoke)
My coworker confessed that she used to smoke before she got pregnant and that she is sneaking smokes now that baby is born. I started to think...Oh good...we can sneak out and have a smoke at the Breakaway Day - Oops...I don't smoke!
My brother couldn't remember is my sister and brother-in-law smoked or not (they've both quit for years)...I start thinking...see...smoking is no big deal..nobody notices anyway...
I know this is dangerous thinking....I hated smoking....I hated what it did to my life...but the farther I get away from it, the easier it is to forget how much I hated it. The first month of my quit was hell....yet as things slowly start to get better, I start to forget why I quit in the first place.
Not planning on smoking...but I know that if I don't stop this "thinking", it would be really easy to lose a quit that I worked very hard to achieve.
Windy
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/11/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 61
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,234
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $305
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21
