Thank you for the encouragement! I had a hard time sleeping last night and woke up feeling depressed, so jumped on here and what I read boosted my spirit! So thanks, I still struggle with what am I to do with my time. Its a tough issue. For years I was a workaholic and a people pleaser. Now with no job and finding it difficult to find anything I enjoy, I am faced with more time on my hands.I know I will find things to keep busy as I have a lot of figureing out to fix my life. Facebook and Twitter have helped me through this time as well. I have reconnected with 70 or so friends from High school, where I was basically a loner for many years. I had work and I had family, no friends, no social life. So now im learning life all over with no work and no family. As you can imagine I was pretty down for quite a while. Just a few months ago things were so bad I wasnt eating, would sleep around the clock. Now ive done a total 360 from that, taking a very active role in creating a new and better life. Ive never eaten so heealthy for so long, nor kept commitments to no soda, coffee or junk food. Working out feels so good too. Its so rewarding when you start to notice your body getting stronger and healthier. Anxiety seems a little better as well, really hoping I will be driving everywhere one day soon. So next I just need a job. When your 47 and basically had the same job since you were 16 its a pretty rude awakining, its like your in a state of shock, never have had to deal with finding a job. For so many years, I was able to be a good provider. Wife for 25 years, raised 4 kids, had a nice home. When it all started to go away, I fell apart. But Im trying to make a come back. The hard part is time. I feel like I should have been more sooner. Its weird, everything that wore me out and down, I feel like should be back, but thats how I got this way in the first place. Sorry to ramble! I think im still lonely. Lance
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 10/14/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 4
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 80
Amount Saved: $24.60
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 17 Mins: 38 Seconds: 42