Well it is Monday morning. I woke up mad, angry, pissed off, Feel like throwing things against the wall. Why I do not know. I guess i'll figure it out. Sometimes that happens when I stop using. I think it is my addiction trying to get it's dose. I know it very well. I should I have been here a thousand times. I think it will try anger, then, self pity, then sadness. etc, until it finds a way for me to drink, but I know better this time. I don't want it. It's litterally putting poison in my body. I guess I have to deal with my new emotions. After all they have been dorment pretty much for the last 10 years, with booze, and pills. I figured out what I want to do this long labour day weekend. I think I will go to Ottawa. It is about 1 and a half hours away. I will get up Saturday morning have breakfast at the restaurant. Then go have my picture taken for my drivers licence, and then off I go site seeing. Rent a hotel room near Ottawa, and then vist the museums etc. Come back sunday. I just have to plan what I will do for Sunday, and monday. Maybe on my way back. I will find some other place to go. $$$$$ is all I have to say. Bye for now.
