thank you for the nice words. i needed that. i am not feeling well today. i posted about it already. i feel very quiet and i dont want to be around anyone. i dont want anyone to talk to me or touch me. i feel very depressed. i just want to go home and be alone. my son is staying at a friends how for a few days. so when i get home i will be alone. i just feel such a sinking. im worried i might get aggrivated if someone tries to talk to me. especially if my boss bothers me. i might get confrontational. thinking about it makes me very irritable. but still the borderline sadness lingers. i almost want to cut myself. today i am dealing with so much self loathing and feeling worthless. i just want to go away. im sorry. i feel bad for feeling this way today. i normally am able to accept that i feel bad and let it pass but today im not so good at it. i have to go. im sorry. i really am sorry.
Yeh, it just amazes me that my husband can handle his work load. It seems to really wear him out and then there is nothing left. Does that sound right? It seems that he gives everything there and then nothing for us. Thanks for you reply. I can always count on you. You know, there are people in your space that are really missing out on a good person. I hope you know that. :)
what now, i work everyday. never miss a day. i withdrawl from everyone. i have zero friends, my choice. i go to work only because i need the paycheck. if i didnt need it i wouldnt go. i would stay home and never leave my house. i wouldnt talk to anyone either most likely. i would rather be alone. but i put on the happy face at work so people leave me alone and dont ask what is wrong. i hate that question. does that help any?
Can a person with depression be able to resist help and withdraw? What is it like day to day that they would be able to shut family out of their lives? It isn't selective withdrawal but from everyone? Also, how are they able to go to work each day and maintain an ability to cope with that but not their personal life? :confuse:
