My husband had me served with divorce papers out of the blue last month. He said I was impossible to deal with when I was pregnant and had decided to divorce me then, but he stuck around for a while so he wouldn't be considered a total jerk. Our daughter is almost 2 years old. I feel so... deceived, dissapointed, dissilusioned, that someone I thought loved and supported me throughout pregnancy and postpartum depression has wanted to leave me for over 2 years and I was clueless!
I am trying to start over again, new home, new town, trying to get a new job and maybe even make a new friend, but it is so hard and there is just so much to do it's hard to do anything! Thankfully my postpartum depression is over, but I have been depressed since childhood and struggling with it in therapy and on meds on and off for the last 10 years.
Do you think it will ever get better/easier? I used to think so but now I am losing hope. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is the love I have for my daughter and her love and need for me. Now she spends 3 days and 2 nights with my soon to be ex, and on the nights I'm alone the depression is the worst.
Anybody out there have any similar experiences or encouraging words? I could sure use them. Thanks for listening to (reading) my story.
