Hi Vincenza, Thanks for asking..not sure just..I am still working on getting to where I can really give myself a good shot at this so called "time out"..but I can tell you this the first thing I did this morning was cook a big breakfast and for desert I soaked all my cigarettes in water and threw them out..So that should help with the headaches on that front Now next I looked a pics on line of old tractors and farm equipment and for Antique farm engine and tractor shows. I found one in Arizona on the first week of October so I the weather is good and all goes well I may be going for a little trip in the travel trailer again..Now next it was time to deal with another source of my headaches so it was on to deal with another source of my headaches my health care clinics illegal billing practices by sending them a private message via their Yelp account, being the mail box the gave me to call has been full for days and hopefully this will be the end of that but history tells me it will not be resolved that easily. So if necessary I will have to call the VA.
Now that the evening is finally here the plan is to enjoy some time looking at one of my quilting magazines as distraction and to not let myself worry about tomorrow which is Monday..and the phone could be ringing off the hook with questions and bad attitudes from my Health Care clinic..I look forward to having a "long time from them".
I know this is long but writing it out helps me to see where I have been, what I have been doing and what I want to change so that I can be doing what I really want to be doing..
I'm sorry to hear you're going through a rough time. It's sounds like you are stepping back to re-evaluate what is important to you, to take some time out to simplify, focus on healing and return to a better place. It is important to take these 'time-outs' every so often. Put yourself and your needs first and incorporate activities in your life that bring you peace and joy. What are some of the pleasant activities you plan to incorporate again?
I have been on the run here for it what seems like forever now. I have been smoking for 2 days in hopes that it would relieve some of my anxiety and depression and today I find myself smothering in it. So today I am going to take another approach to it all..I am going to step back from the computer and the world for how ever long it takes, days weeks, months or whatever and get back to basics. Today I am going to return to my sobriety from this world and make a conscious effort to include some pleasant activities in my life again..The constant negativity from the health care system and the world as it is now that I find myself in is the major source of it. Not sure what to do about it all yet but one thing is for sure I am going to try to stay away from it for as long as I can..So this stepping back is the best thing for me now..and all the thoughts of all the phone calls to billing depts on Monday is more than I can bear now. It really has to stop now for I find that I am at the jumping off place..So for today or however long I can muster I am jumping off this treadmill of emotional pain and suffering I am going to concentrate on getting away from it all and getting well again.
