This is not just for you but for everyone. Closure is important in all things unless you want them to haunt you and screw up the next thing you try. Congratulations. The act may not feel great but the accomplishment does right. and that is what leaves positive at the top of the pile and that is very important.
So I am almost done my day at my old job. so far so good.
I felt some anxiety and unease come up but paid no attention to the feeling and kept going on. Reminding myself all the things that I need to remind myself and all the CBT skills I practiced on.
I have some dread feeling maybe because I know this is not where I want to be.... that's why I left it.
But it feels good to come back to the place my panic started and leaving with confidence that it wasnt the place all along but the thoughts that I had that made me feel bad about myself for the last two months.
I now have the confidence to ride out the wave and know that nothing bad ever happened from all of my thinking, worry and anxiety....
It feels good to start the new job since I closed off this one confidently.
Bit scary hey. Wait till the whole world turns crystal clear and beautiful. This happens to me a couple of times a year, and I live in the mountains. euphoria. Yes it is normal and it is progress, see CBT changes thought patterns, it doesn't make things go away, it can't, they are in memory. It changes how you see things making them harmless.
The exposure will end how ever you want it too, and if it isn't good, pick out the good parts because they will be progress too. You can do this. Remember it is only thought, there is nothing physical and nothing that can harm you.
Good luck. Look for me, I will be there in thought. Just hold my hand and do it.
I had weird thing happen to me today, all the feelings of panic and anxiety, although very minimal felt absolutely normal. I think my mind recognized them as normal and went away. Is this normal??? Is this progress?
I have to go back to my old job for a few hours tomorrow to pick up some stuff and train a former coworker. I hope this exposure ends in good memories to help me overcome and give me confidence.
