Yes it surely does pass, but when you're in the moment its hard to believe that.
I had a great desensitization and faced my fears, not i have the courage and can say to myself that anxiety is nothing, it just scares me, but you have the power to not let it have a hold on you.
See Cara, it does pass and it does lose it's importance. Like the six inches of fresh snow we have this morning. I don't want it but it will go and life will go on.
The psych ward was a world within a world with limited access to the outside world. No radio or TV. No computers. A place to rest as best as possible (with a broken leg). A chance to look at all the good things I would be going home to. I made friends there. One has since died of Cancer but another I still Email. It was very homey. Not at all like TV portrays it. Still it is not home despite the care. I'm getting better at ignoring the negative especially things I have no control over.
It takes a bit of work some days to stay positive but it is worth it.
Thanks Davit. I do it to myself really. I see all the bad things in the world I take it to heart, maybe too much. I let it bother me.
I keep worrying about it, thinking about it till it starts to build panic inside me. I can't seem to shake it off. The good days is what I hold on to and knowing I can have another one if I let it.
Been stressed about a few things this month so its hard to keep going, but I still do it. Its hard to accept that this will be my life and has been for the past year. I want my old me back. The old me that would never think about what i'm feeling and why I'm feeling this way, just let it be. The old me that isn't scared on when my next panic will be. And esp the old me that didn't have the detachment or depersonalization. This symptom gets me everytime. Its very scary. Sometimes I feel like losing my mind and checking into a rehab or something....then the feeling fades away.
Its very disturbing, how can we just move on and keep going? I thought I was okay already.....and now back again.
I had a trauma in my life twice and both times it took a long time to get rid of them but they went. The key was accepting that I could not change the past. The past doesn't count except as an experience not to repeat. It is over and there is nothing you or I can do about it other than to try to bury it. Not forget it but make it of no consequence since it can not be changed. People make mistakes, that is how we learn and most mistakes are small and have no affect but once in a while something happens that plagues us. Good word that. Because it is like that. Only we don't die. We live on with the scars but we do go on. And the scars do fade away.
As for never having another panic attack, it is possible but it takes constant positive thought to neutralize the trigger. Association is a big problem if you are around negative people. Being negative is their way of not getting panic by passing it on to others. Instead you get the panic they should have. How many times have you left a situation or get together feeling bad or anxious over something that has nothing to do with you. This is second hand anxiety, and it is subtle but damaging none the less because negative breeds negative and makes it hard to stay positive. Try to find a positive reason to change the negative thoughts and it will help a lot with the panicky feeling. As for this type of trigger there is not much else we can do since they are not our triggers.
Yes it is memory. I had these last summer and now becoz it's starting to look like it was then, I'm getting them back. I had to keep letting it happen, a few time I questioned but then got worse, so tried my coping skills.
I guess it's progress since I'm not letting it bug me or let it push me back to the ground. I kept on going and paid no attention to it. I must say though, it was pretty damn hard. Real hard.
I want to bury this memory, bury last year. I hate when I think about what happened to me, it all keeps coming back. Sometimes I even question what's normal and what's not? If I'm depressed or not? But I know I'm not, too much to blessed for. Trust me I work and see it all day.
I read that some people never get panic attacks again or anxiety, why can't I be that one?
As you said, again which means there was a period between when it wasn't there. So there can be another if you do what you did last time. Remember your mind is taking it's cue's from you. Why do you think it happened now? Is it something about this time of the year? Some memory triggering a response.
