I am sorry to hear you are not feeling very supported right now. I can certainly see why you would be hurt by this. It seems clear your parents care about you but it also sounds like they do not have a full understanding of anxiety and depression is. Going to the doctor sounds like a good idea. It may trigger anxiety but I think it is important to get the support you need. Feeling suicidal is serious and should not be taken lightly. If you ever feel suicidal again please tell someone right away, call your local crisis line or 911.
You don't deserve to continue to feel this low. Access your resources, whether it is getting into a residential treatment center, getting therapy and/or working the program here, utilize any resource you have access to. With support and some hard work you will start to feel better soon. How are you feeling today?
When I had my recent "breakdown" in January 2014, I called my parents and my mother came and stayed at my place (2 1/2 hrs away) for 2 weeks, and I'm 34 years old!! I'm lucky because her job allows her to work from home when she wants/if necessary, so it worked out well. I was sitting in my doctors office bawling my eyes out when my mom arrived, and she came with me to a couple other appointments over the next week. Yes, I was the one doing the talking/explaining, but having someone there, even for silent support, helped me so much. I wasn't admitted to the hospital during this time (although there were times I thought it would be easier, so someone else could make all the decisions).
Do you have any friends or other family members who could go with you to your appointment(s)? Talk honestly to your doctor about your concerns/fears, and decide what is best for you.
I forgot to mention there is a sister site to this one site here if you need help with depression it is called The Depression Center. You can find it by clicking on More Help at the top of the forum page..
I have used both of these sites and they both have helped me tremendously..The sessions both here and there really complement each other nicely..and opened up my eyes to the bigger picture.Then things really started to make more sense and all the pieces started to fit together. I began to understand myself better and started making positive progress on my journey..I am still on that journey..
I hope this infomation I am giving you and what you later learn here and there helps you on your own personal journey.
I have some experience along these lines and spent 3 weeks in psych ward when I was 19 or 20 years of age. I had a major breakdown as they called it in those days. I am almost 60 now and have felt that I may break down again many times over the years. One thing I learned is that self care is crucial if you want to survive in this world. It has been a hard lesson to learn. So one thing I do is make sure I get enough sleep and eat well. The second thing is I am very mindful of the fact that I need to set boundaries when it comes to others and make sure I am not overextending my self emotionally or physically when it comes to others.
My parents came to visit me while I was in the lock down ward but I had to finally ask that they not be allowed in to see me if they were drinking. Anyway to make a long story short the time I spent their gave me a chance to rest and get my bearing again. I slept for 5 days straight in a hospital right next to the nurses station where they could keep a watchful eye on me 24/7...Once I was fully awake I did not like it their but in time I grew to like it and was not sure if I wanted to leave and go back into the outside world..Of course I did and I feel that my time spent there on the ward gave me a chance to realize that I really did want to live and so I am still alive and living here on the Earth today and trying to always be mindful of my own needs.
I have been in the psych ward. It is different because the door is locked. But it was fine. It was a chance to meet and talk to others with similar conditions. But as a cure it was a washout. I still get suicidal thoughts which I have no intention of acting on. All they mean anymore is that I need to take care of what is causing them. Some times it seems my life is hopeless even though it isn't. Hard yes but not hopeless yet.
I'm disappointed that at least one parent couldn't go with you as a friend. I would go and I'm a stranger. Support is support, age has nothing to do with it.
Has anyone tried staying at a residential treatment centre for anxiety and/or depression?
I am meeting with my doctor in a couple hours to discuss the possibility. I am terrified of the idea. My parents were supposed to come with me, as last weekend I had a huge breakdown and admitted to them that I had almost committed suicide the day before. At this point, they urged me to go to the doctor, saying that they would come with me me, as I have always complained that I don't think he takes me seriously or believes I'm "as bad" as I am. However, they then decided to go to their cottage, with the reasoning "You're 27. It will look stupid if we go with you". Even though I fully admitted to them last weekend that I needed support. I agree, I'm 27, I go to appointments alone all the time. But this is different.
I guess I'm rambling now about my own personal frustrations. Back on topic...
I have looked into residential treatment in the past, but have always been told that I wasn't bad enough. It's beyond frustrating because it's like..ok.. I'm telling you I have suicidal thoughts regularly, and that nothing seems to be working. But because I put on makeup and a smile on my face, I appear fine.. That's always the problem. "But you LOOK fine".
Has anyone had any experience with this? Good or bad?
