Between starting this program whole heartedly and trying a new medication, I was making great strides.
My panic, that was once a daily - all day- feeling, miraculously went away. Well, now I find myself out of my medication due to my own stupidity of not paying attention and my panic is back into full blown again.
I am using my tools from here and it is making things manageable but taking alot of work on my part.
It is amazing how missing this medication reduces me back to an infant almost. It's strange, I was on this med 4 years ago and it did nothing for me. I also was in a terrible mental state too at the time from a complete breakdown. But my Dr. and I decided to give it another try and it has been nothing short of miraculous for me. I do attribute having this program as part of my success, but i just can't believe how challenging it is for me now without this med. I knew it helped but didn't realize just how much. I wont get to see my Dr. until Wednesday but I will call her and see if she can't phone in a script for me. I feel like I am back at day one with all this panic. It is so hard to even keep my hands
steady enough to type I am trembling so from the panic. One thing I do use is to remind myself that my brain is simply giving me the wrong message and try to "change the channel" and receive different messages from it. I know it sounds queer but the imagery of it really helps. I learned that here. That my brain is simply getting the wrong message. This was ground breaking for me and my panic. Just now typing about it, I am feeling some relief.
Have any of you had this powerful of reaction with a med? That it can totally rule you???
i had no idea I would go down like this without it. It has been 5 days now since my last dose--oh yeah, it is called Pristiq in the United states. But each day further away from last dose I see myself digressing. Getting tougher and tougher.
I am on a total of 5 different psych meds and I thought I would be ok without one of them until my next apppt. but I guess not.
Thank God for this program to help me through. I am so very grateful to have this. Everything is explained so well and they truly know exactly the right words to describe everything. They are right on target . It's as if this program were written just for me.
I've been in therapy for 30years on and off and the last 5 years every single week!!!!Nothing has touched me the way this has. Maybe I was just ready because nothing is really new to me here...it just brings me around to information at just the right time i need it and it challenges me exactly when I am ready.
Plus this medication could have something to do with it to. But I have never gone as long as I have before this med incident-without panic. My life was always riddled with it. I was doing so well and I could just kick myself
for running out of med. I should know better.
Anyhow, I am struggling once again, but i did want you all to know how much of a difference in my life this program has made for me.
Thank you all for the work you do. I am able to go outdoors, do errands and keep a job now.
Never before possible for me.
I guess I was just ready.
Thank you for listening to my garble. I'm pretty uneasy today and it felt so good to write something.
Thank you for everything
