That was not a failure at all. You tried the best you could and it sounds like there was more anxiety provoking stimuli then you originally thought. I think when your daughter gets back, working on a progressive exposure plan with her help might be beneficial. You will be able to take control of this fear - it will take time and practice. In the mean time be easy on yourself. You are being very courageous in trying to take control.
well i managed today not alone as my son in law came out to spend soem time with me so i was ok and my daughter got to go on her day trip
i was very anxious all night but got less so as time came for her to go as i was practising my goals of not catastophising which really helped
i was still more anxious throughout the day and got very panicy when i was bit by a neighbouring cat.which only made me think i definately have health phobia.now to try and figure out how to tackle it
There is no point beating yourself over the head over this. It doesn't help you or your daughter. You did what you could at the time and next time you will do what yo can again. With more experience under your belt you can do it!
i wasnt doing too bad until just before bed with my had being all spaced out i managed to hit my head on the corner of an open cupboard giving myself a cut and a nasty bump
we even ended up ringing the gp services thinking they would readsure me it be ok but they suggested my daughter stay at home to monitor me for 24 hrs because of dizziness and blurred vision.which i told the gp may be anxiety instead.he said nothing likely to happen but this is what he suggested just be watched for a while but as my daighter was going away it made me feel even more panicy
i decided to go bed and i managed to relax but as soon as i started drifting of i went into a full panic attack.manage to calm myself a bit tried sleep again and boom another panic aatck
so my daughter got extremely upset with me and went to cancel her trip.ive managed to reschedule it for her and offered to pay ammendment fees.BUT i now feel such a failure
i coped very well today i think until my daughter said goodnight then i found myself thinking im going to panic im going to panic nd f course that set of adremaine and panic feelings
but somehow i think havign red about things here im already feeling more secure
for a start i can recognise that i can bring on a panic attack just by thinking im going to have one so im trying my best to not let that build up at all.its still there but so far not as hightened
It's great that you are doing the challenging sheets. It can really help.
I've learned recently that if I accept that I will have tougher moments that I am much more tolerant of discomfort linked to anxiety. Sometimes letting go and accepting what is can be very freeing. I am still working on that though. IT's easier said then done.
Hang in there. It's great that you are giving your daughter time to rest and recuperate!
one of my biggest problems is being home alone and my daughter is going away this week again.
my most severe and the start of my panic attacks was when my daughter who is my main carer went away for a week.i wasnt used to her not being around.i am disabled and housebound.even though i was geting some exta care this caused me so much distress that as soon as she left i ended up having a fullblown panic attack and she had to coem home early from her holiday
since then i paniced everytime she went out of the house.ive managed to learn to cope now when shes out for the day but this is the first time shes gone away again and i already feel ancipatory fear creeping in
im doing the challenge sheets to try and keep my levels lower so i dont go into full blown panic attacks as last time i spent days in anxiety and panic attcks state unable to sleep or relax
