Hi, I am sorry to hear that you are feeling bad. I myself do not like big crowds. I work as a bartender, and at work I am outgoing and generally don't have anxiety. I think because I love making my customers smile. But if I dare go in a mall, grocery store etc, I immediately feel anxious. Im really glad you found this site, and hope that you will start the cbt program, I'm confident that it can help you feel better about yourself.
