Thanks Anne-Marie. I will let you know about the job :- )

Oh just how cool is that! Good for you! Let us know if you get the job? Wishing you continued improvement and stability.

Hi Anne-Marie Thanks for the gold star. I am so proud of it. lol I think I received one of those when I was in first grade. Looking back I am quite sure it was a sympathy star. You probably won't believe this but I was a bit of a hellion back then and believe me there was no abundance of gold stars. lol I am sending a gold star back to you cuz you are here and because you help so many people. You go girl! Thanks for believing in me when I didn't believe in myself. With all your wonderful help and advice I think I have managed to pick myself up, dust myself off and have another try at it. I was really dusty too! Oh and that pie you were talking about...I think I might try to grab a few pieces. You can never have enough pie. You are right, that sweet little baby certainly renewed my hope. I think I will tell her when she is older. Thanks for wishing me luck with the job. The interview helped restore a bit of my confidence. So even if I don't get the job I came out ahead. I have been thinking about all the stuff that has happened in the last few weeks. Geez what a meltdown. I think though that when I have another episode I might be better able to deal with it. As gruesome as it was I have learned a lot from what I went through. Not the least of it being that I will need to do my best to not give the cops grief. And the knowledge that I can't resist them, I can't get away from them and most importantly that they can and will squish me like a bug. Once they started chasing me it took them less than five seconds to flatten me. lol I can't believe I can actually laugh about this now. I am sure that you are uber tired of me by now but I have another cool thing to tell you. I was cruising some of the boards a couple of weeks ago and noticed a post by a guy named Keith who was really having a tough time. He was depressed and suicidal and pretty much at the end of his rope (sound familiar lol). Anyway he was saying that he really thought that he should probably be in a hospital but was so afraid of going that he couldn't ask for help. Even though I was way less than stable at the time I thought maybe sharing my experiences might help him. I told him how I had waited w

Oh Heather, you do sound renewed and healing. It's so wonderful to read this post! I just love it! We can and do learn from others. I dare think that you got some hope from seeing that couple and the little baby that all is not bad, and that the little one does indeed have every chance of making it. I'm pulling for you for that job too! I know you can reach new heights and find some fulfillment. You are skilled and smart. Go out there and grab your piece of the pie, whether it be that job or another one. I'm no psychologist, but the dream does sound to me like you're putting it in perspective. I love it that you're winning in your dreams, whether he be old or not. I'm pulling for you there too! Here's a gold star for you.

Hi Anne-Marie You are not going to believe this one. I have 4 good positive things that have happened in the last few days. Yes it really is me in case you have a hard time believing it. lol I had a job interview last week on Thursday. I thought the interview went quite well and I think I hit it off with the guy. He told me that he had received over 100 resumes and had picked 9 out of the pile to have an interview with. I made the short list at least. That really helped boost my confidence. He told me that my skill are what they are looking for. I think I have a shot at this job. Even if I don't get it I feel good that I made the short list. He will be interviewing for another week so I will probably know by the end of next week. Also if I get this job it is an extremely well paid position...especially for a woman if you know what I mean. I would be able to play catch up with my bills and stuff. I have still been having a lot of nightmares...BUT...in quite a few of them lately I have been battling my father...AND WINNING. I am taking that as a positive sign. I guess my subconcious is telling me that I can win this battle. Also I tend to think that now that he is an old guy I could probably take him...he is pretty old. lol Today...well I guess it was yesterday really. My boyfriend Dave and I went to visit some friends of ours. They have the most beautiful and adorable 9 month old baby. I can't describe how beautiful this baby is. I looked at this baby and for the first time didn't feel great fear that somebody could really hurt her and wreck her life. I watched how loving and comforting and protective her parents were of her and I thought this baby is going to make it. She has kind, loving, doting parents who are always going to be there to love her and protect her. I saw such potential in the baby's face. I thought this kid has a chance, she is going to have a great life, she is going to grow up normal, she can be anything she wants to be. It gave me such hope for the future. And I looked at this sweet innocent baby and realized what a monster my father was...and my mother for not protecting me. I realized that small children have absolutely now power or ability to pr

Hi Heather. Ha! My signature did come up differently at that. Hi Shelley, welcome. If you feel worse when you're coming off meds, be sure to keep in touch with your doctor.

Hi I am new here and wondering if anybody else has tried to go OFF a medication, particularly Prozac. I am trying right now and have heard so many horror stories but so far its not bad, only been 3 days really. I would just like to try not being on anything for a while and see if it helps me out. I seem to be just going through the motions as opposed to actually living. [font=Tahoma]Text[/font] :8o:

Hi Anne-Marie I am glad that everything is okay. I didn't know that it was you who answered this thread. Your signature came up different than it usually does. Things have been better lately. I credit this to your help. I was thinking about you the other day. I was thinking how hard it must be for you to hear other people's misery day after day. I hope it doesn't affect you adversely? Next time I come on here I will tell you something good and positive okay? take care hugs heather

Thanks so much. Is this Anne-Marie? heather

Hi Heather, It sounds like you're feeling somewhat better, and for that I'm so happy for you.