I am very sorry to hear about your present circumstances, being a widow now, and all, and all the changes in your family life. You can ask your doctor about trying more medication, just as you have described to us...worried about down the road. I understand the feeling of being tired of not feeling normal. I think most of us probably get sick of it all and that's why we need to write it out here. I was advised on this site to talk to the doctor about medications, but I am afraid to change because I am o.k. most of the time, and I don't want the heavy side effects of the heavier drugs. However, everyone is different, and I suppose we have to know ourselves, what we can put up with and what we need to do. I hope you can talk to your doctor more about it, or change doctors.