Hey Kate,
Thank you for you response. It was very inspirational. It got me out of one of those little funks. I went to CVS today and got a card for my grandpa, he is recently getting over heart surgery. I felt a little weird and anxious there but I got through it. Then, i went and put in Travis, my fiance's, clothes in the laundry. (We live in an apartment and don't have our own washer and drier yet). Once again, I mean I wasn't scared to do this stuff BUT while I was doing it my legs were shaky and I was sweaty and I could feel anxiety kicking in. I don't know why it does that...this is stuff I didn't even think twice about doing before. Travis went to Walmart while I was doing it, I didn't feel quite up to going there yet, that's were I started having panic attacks this time. I'm trying not to get down on myself about it....but its hard. I came back here and started cleaning up...I didn't really want to do it, but did it anyways. Afterwards, I just felt really edgy and anxious...like i had all this energy but it was anxious energy. I also had and am still having a little dizzy spell. It seems like if I exert myself and actually do things, I get dizzy. I don't know if its the Celexa or if it is anxiety or a combination of both. Then, I have this bad habit about reading about every single little symptom I feel. For instance, I read stuff about mania and I start thinking that I'm turning manic when I am feeling ok.....why, I don't know...I never was before. But that has been my day so far. And an answer to you question, yes i definitely have a problem with perfectionism. When I was stablized on Celexa, this wasn't a problem....I was ok with myself, my failures, etc. Yea, i would get down if something happened that didn't go with how I wanted it but it wouldn't wreck my day like it does now. I don't know. I'm feeling better....just writing about some of this stuff, getting it out, having someone listen (or read) helps. I'm gonna go try and watch some tv or something...lol. Thanks again so much.
Becky
