Sharon,
I'm new to this group, and don't want to interfere with your discussion with Gabbi, but I was pretty moved by your postings. I was out of work for about 2 months when I was first diagnosed, and I know how paralyzing it can be at the prospect of going back. It is so important to just take one day at a time and make little goals for yourself. I know that may sound like a cliche, but I found that one day/one hour/or even one minute at a time is all I can do. Just know that I'll be praying for you as you start back to work. The ups and downs are very frustrating, but with support we will all get through it together.
kelly