Hi Everyone,
I really need some help from all of you, I have so much pent up anger, resentment that it consumes me. I started off this morning feeling ok that is until I went outside and became dizzy and lightheaded and made it back to bed before fainting and falling down on my knee. This is the fourth time this has happened in about two weeks now. My doctor reduced my blood pressure medication, but I don't think that is what causing the problem. I am so full of rage and anger most of the time that I can't seem to eat anymore. I have been trying to hide these things from my husband, but today he found me on the floor of our bedroom. He also doesn't know I am seeing a doctor for depression or that I am taking meds for it. It's kind of my way of gaining control over some part of my life. I am so lonely and sad most of the time, nothing interests me except being alone and using the computer. No one really to hurt me here. Since I have been this angry for over one month now,all I do feel is either anger or numbness, nothing in between. Still can't cry and this really bothers me because I would like to be able to cry again and just release any feelings at all. Thanks for listening
