Hello all,
I am on medication (300mg Wellbutrin & 5mg Escitalopram) and have had a much improved state but....I still don't feel like I'm me. I am so great at putting on a happy face for everyone that I think some people think that I am faking things to stay off of work. I honestly am not but I know that is the probable consensus at work. I shouldn't care what they think and I don't (for the most part) I just hate the fact that my honesty and integrity is being damaged because of this. I have a very strong feeling that when I go back I will be let go. I know this is not legal but I also know they are not that stupid to not make it "legit".
My Dr. says he wants me to stay off to take a program that I am signed up for (like a CBT and life skills therapy) and that I need to do this or I will end up in the same place again and probably worse. I know that he is right but I have already been off for 5 months and the course is about 5 months long. I am so stressed out about it and being off so long but I know that I can't neglect myself. Aaaurrgh!
What would you do?
(For the record I believe that I am going to stay off but I still have such bad feelings over this that I am working myself back into a state of worry!)
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