Lady:
I just wanted to write and say that I certainly do understand about feeling worn out with the effort, and like you, I have a list of things I used to do to make it feel better. Certainly isolating myself was one of the things I had/have down to a fine art (and your post gave me a great challenge to overcome that here, so thank you). And like you I definitely have days when I wish I could just put the toothpaste back in the tube and give up on confronting these strange patterns in my life. I have no answers beyond that, to say anything more would be to pretend I have answers. But I did want you to know that I understand, and moreover, you really helped me a great deal by your post and by giving me an opportunity to respond.
Thanks again