I don't know, I'm feeling very frustrated today...the sun's not out, maybe it's just as simple as that, but I don't think it is. Maybe overwhelmed is the word. I've started this volunteer work, I've never felt more appreciated than I do when I go there and what a feeling that is. But when I get home, it's back to the same old thing. "Mom, I need this", "when's dinner", "what's for dinner", "I need $25.00 for school" and so on. And then my husband just comes sauntering in at dinner time and asks how my day was. So, I'm in a bad mood and he takes it personally, why can't I be in a bad mood. I'm tired of putting on my happy face when I don't feel like it. (I'm really not this mean, just felt underappreciated).
I'm fighting a cold in which my husband gave to me. We were at the arena last night with our boys and friends were coming up to me asking if I was feeling ok, "looks like you have a cold", "do you want a tea", amazingly nice friends!!! My husband says nothing. I wanted to sell him, actually give him away. He grabs is blackberry, sits on the bench and away with work issues he goes. UGH!!!! I'd like to throw that blackberry away.
I guess I'm just venting (again), I just don't feel I have the "get up and go" feeling anymore with him. Is this just a period of time or is it "a little too late" period of time.
Let's hope the sun comes out, either that or a good cup of coffee and a biscotti. Thanks for listening...thank goodness for this site!!!
