Ho Ho Holy Sh*t it's finally over!
Yep, we survived the Christmas Crazy.
Miserable year for us, both too unwell to even put up a tree, but on the bright side we don't have to take the rotten thing down. I always hate that part and this year I shall be spared. :)
My positive thought for today came from watching a TV commercial, of all places. It was for some new med for Rheumatoid Arthritis and the gist of the commercial is that I can't be who I used to be but I sure can be something else.
Having a disability really does rob life of a lot of pleasures I always took forgranted. I've spent literally years trying to refit myself into this new limited body and have run up against the wall of depression time and time again.
Last night the light bulb went off over my head ... If I can't be who I was (social butterfly, Harley rider, skydiver ... etc.), who do I want to be in this new set of circumstances? I can re-define myself.
Instead of being like a river fighting against a dam, I can be like a creek flowing around rocks and obstacles. I'm no longer that person who goes after life like I'm running out of time, no longer the adrenaline junkie. Yah, I miss it a lot some days, but it's time for me to grow into my new existance. A new, softer, more adaptable Sandy.
I love that I'm always up for a challenge. My challenges used to be physical, but these days they come in the form of mental challenges. Believe me, fighting fatigue and depression every day is much, much more difficult than skydiving! And not nearly so much fun. :)
My challenge for 2008 is to adapt. To redefine. To clear out those things and people that no longer fit my world. To become a new version of me. To stop fighting so hard and to start focussing on what I'm grateful for.
Anyone else have a vision for the upcoming year?
Shell and I always choose a word that we live by. For 2006 it was tranquility. We measured everything that came along by that yardstick. If it didn't promote tranquility, we didn't do it.
2007 was health. Not so successful with that one, but still helped us be more aware of what we could do to feel better.
2008 is redefine ourselves. Be the most we can be with the limitations we are given. Everyone has limitations and the goal this year is to work with ours instead of fighting them.
