Goofy,
I know exactly what you mean. If I attend a family function, participate in the event and enjoy myself -- I hear "Gigi must be getting better," or "Gigi seemed fine," or "I think Gigi is cheered up now." (I wish!)
They don't understand the great effort I've made just to stay there with them.
Even though, like I said, I've had a good time.
They don't see how I can have had a great time at the event but then drag myself to my bed when I get home.
My mother, Lord bless her, is not bashful about letting me know when she's aggrivated with the whole thing. But, she and my father do try to help and be compassionate most of the time.
I talk to my daughters about it. Trying to help them see why Mom is the way she is.
My 16 yr old seems bitter about it.
My 21 yr old accepts it well enough without giving me pity.
I like that. I don't want any one's pity. I just want understanding and acknowledgement.
My meds do help me a good bit, I can tell because on days when I "forget" to take them, oh man.... I get REALLLY REALLLLLLLLLY Low.
However........ there's just not that BALANCE that I need. I need to be stable. I FEEL that need but I can't get it.
Any suggestions? I don't get to see my therapist until September. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!