Hey Stardust
I really understand how you feel. I have always been the strong one. When everyone else gives up or crumbles- I was always the one left standing. My husband and I are each other's strength. When me depression was at its worst- I felt guilty that I could not give him the support he needed emotionally because I was such a wreck. We had a bit of a betrayal issue in our relationship and he ended up having panic attacks after the confession. I tried to be strong for him, even though I was falling apart, until I did not have strength left for either of us. I told him the truth about how I felt and we both agreed it would be best for me to focus on helping myself first because I couldn't support him in the state I was in. He was very supportive. When I shouted, he would make himself scarce and when I cried he would hold me. I realised that everyone is entitled to a break and even a breakdown from time to time...... We should not feel guilty about things beyond our control. Just by gettig up in the morning, we are still fighting the good fight.