Hi to you all,
Not quite sure what to get from this site but hoping to find answers and support in feeling better about myself and stop my feelings of dispair, worry and feelings of wanting to harm myself.
The problem is my feelings of great sadness come and go, one minute I am on top of the world and this can last a while when I feel I can achieve anything, to times of great sorrow, feeling helpless and guilty, numb and frustrated with ideas of self harming, losing loved ones and really have to fight these emotions.
Sometimes I think it would be best if I was put away - not because I am a danger but feel sometimes like I am just managing to keep it together.
I have a wonderful job and loving husband and I enjoy this part of my life but there is another side to me that is just hard to suppress at times.
I know I've just introduced my self but might as well give you a little story on my life keeping it very brief.
Growing up I have been assaulted, raped and tried to be dragged away by a stranger, my sister tried several times to kill her self and in 1996 she succeded. I still cry myself to sleep sometimes missing her and while driving to work at times I will cry seeing her face. I just feel empty a wish to be free of feeling like this.
Please help
Julie
