Welcome back, and I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through some rough times. Your work seems to be causing you much stress and worry that is out of your control, but the good news is that you can control what you do outside of work and on your own time. Have you been taking time to make yourself happy by exploring your hobbies (painting, motorcycles..etc)? Doing something you enjoy might better allow you to find a better balance between your work life and your home life. Never worry about dissapointing us, we know how hard this can be and will support you through the good times as well as the bad.
I have tobe honest Im not doing as good as I make it sound ever since I got this promotion at work and they 'v sent me back to school Iv been realy feeling down school at night and working the day is hard and now Im incharge at work and have to anser queitions and give direction to coworkers Im worred Im going to be asked things I can't anser? and worred about the schooling Iv been at this job for many years and realy enjoy it but latley it scares me my brain hurts from thinking so much,Sorry I wasent being honest with you all.I didnt want you to know I fell off the wagon because everyone was so happy that I was doing so good,I geuss thats why I came back!