Ditto I can so totally relate....I've learned though - never stop working. It is a part-time job. I find the same things useful and a couple of more....but if I start slacking......ah oh. Vent when you need to.....just keep on working.
Motivation: remember where you were and ya want to get back there. And it wasn't that long ago. Each time it takes me a little bit less and less time to get it back. I never get completely back - but at least a peaceful place.
Hang in there! HOPE; there is always hope and we gotta do our part! Unfortunately for right now - routinely!
After spending almost 3 weeks with family over the holidays, now that I'm back to my "normal" life, I'm finding it difficult to get back into my DC homework. I felt fairly well when I got back, and of course didn't think I needed to work on my depression, and now that I'm struggling with the depression again, I'm finding it hard to get back into my Toolbox and start working again. It's so frustrating!!! This whole depression thing is frustrating! When I talked with my counselor last week, I told him that I hate having to do mood trackers, thought records, journal, meditate and everything else I work on to try to be normal. Normal people don't do this and I feel almost like it's a part-time job. I just want to be normal. Just venting....