I am looking for feedback to see if anyone else has the same issues, feelings, or experiences with their depression. I am hoping to get some insight to help myself based on others experience.
There are times (many actually) when I go to bed after a fairly good day, in a OK mood only to wake up sensitive and irritable. Why is that....sleeping is to relax and rejuvenate your body and mind. Does anyone else experience this?
Friday was a really good day, Saturday I felt pretty good but could tell I was a bit more anxious and irritable. Today, I feel more irritable and feel like I have to make a valid effort not to bite some ones head off. Nothing has happened to explain the change in moods?? Why is this??? What the heck...I wish I could have more days like Friday!!
Then I drag myself out of bed actually being angry that I have to get up and start the day. Not a good way to start the day. does anyone else experience this?
I have been on several different antidressents over the years. I find they work for a short period of time and then the positive effects just go away. I become my old irritable, crabby self that I dont like and don't really believe I am but feel that way so much I think maybe that is just the way I am. Does anyone else experience this?
Does anyone know about mood stabilizers? Are they the same as antidepreeants? Are they used in conjunction with antidepressants?
I am seeing a very nice pshyc doctor and I think she can be helpful. The issue is I am not sure I am being open enough or understand enough about what is going on because I am so used to feeling just Ok, or crabby that I think it is the norm. Then I am not sure if I am just whining again because that's what my husband says...I complain alot. I don't think I complain as much as I like to address issues and make them better. Does that make sense to anyone?
Then the more I try to help myself and analyze things, the more I think I am confusing myself. Maybe I am just a crabby old thing and can't see joy in life or others....I don't know anymore what direction to turn. Then I say well just leave me alone. Then I don't have to worry about pleasing any one. f course that is not the answer. It is just so darn confusing....do others feel this same merry-go-round type feeling?
Thanks for reading and any feedback is welcome.
