I'm trying to find an analogy to all of this but I'm at a loss. It seems like we have to debunk each of our addiction's landmines one by one. Some are easier than others. For instance, we know we are doing the best thing possible for ourselves but our junkie thinking tells us - oh, just have one, you're stressed (for whatever reason - could be traffic/woke up on the wrong side of the bed - could be more severe - lost your job or something). Well, we can look to those ahead of us who have dealt with this. Some have slipped and some have held on. Those who have held on keep telling us it is worth it. I don't know why they'd lie to us. I doubt they really wish they were smokers again and just forgot how to light one... We have to take each temptation and destroy it, or if we can't, just don't smoke, and offer up to your higher power/faith(whatever you want to call it) that which you cannot control and move on. Hopefully it will fade into oblivion or at least go away until we're strong enough to combat it. Sometimes we have to trudge through the muck to get to the other side. I'm counting on it being worth it and I want it bad.
I've been feeling very low, uninspired, stupid, angry. But I have moments when I feel incredible, where I feel like I glimpse the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. This has been said countless times, but we have to take this day by day, minute by minute, moment by moment sometimes, even. I know when I look to far ahead, or behind for that matter, it becomes very daunting and overwhelming, very quickly. We're all going through the same thing, differently. We are alone, together.
I know most of you, if not all, are aware of all of this, but it helps me to hammer it out, too.
keep on keepin' on - fish
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/21/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 56
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,708
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $280
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 55
