cincere,
Life is what we make it. Quitting is what we make it. A favorite quote of mine is [b][color=blue]"What Consumes Your Thoughts Controls Your Life"[/color][/b]
So, what is on your mind when you quit? Your life? Your kids? Your cigarettes? Probably more of the cigarettes than the others. You are a nicotine junkie. An addict. But you are in good company.. all smokers are nicotine addicts. We quit. We break the addiction but all we will ever be are recovering addicts. Just like the alcoholic. We can never have that first puff just like the alcoholic can never have that first sip. It has to be a mindset. It becomes a way of life.
When you had your long quit you never really thought about smoking after some period of time, but like all addicts, the junkie thoughts never really left you. Instead of just blowing them off when they would come around, you choose to listen to them. That is what started you back to smoking.
Now you seem to be fighting your quit. Always remember that smoking does nothing to your life other than ruin your health and lighten your wallet. It doesn't solve problems, it doesn't make things better, it's doesn't do crap. Whatever we "think" is does is all in our minds. We convince ourselves that smoking is some magic wand. That is even more b.s. Smoking is the Big Lie and you know it. Just about every smoker at some time or other knows that. Many choose to ignore it.. that is, until they are on oxygen or getting chemo or worse.
Get the right attitude. You are doing yourself the biggest favor of your life by quitting. As for the rest of your life, it will be there whether you smoke or not. So don't smoke and at least eliminate that one miserable part of your life.
Best wishes.
[b][color=Green]Be Strong. Be Smart. Be Quit.[/color]
[color=black]Joe[/color]
[size=3][color=Blue]Knowledge Replaces Fear[/color][/size]
[size=2][color=black]Illegitimus non carborundum est[/color][/size][/b]
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/15/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 276
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,908
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $676.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 48 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 42 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53
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Quit Meter
$36,548.80
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 9393
Hours: 13
Minutes: 29
Seconds: 22
Life Gained
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45686
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
365,488
Cigarettes Not Smoked