I agree oinkX2u. Having come in late on this thread I see this as a learnN/teachN opportunity so Rusty please bare with me~
Excerpt from [i]Loose Teeth[/i] By John Detrixhe
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He had taken the damn aspirin, hoping to die in the office just to spite the nurse. Such a childish thing, Gerald thought, wanting to suffer and die just to spite someone. That afternoon the doctor had prescribed antibiotics and the sinus opening had healed within a week. For a considerable time he had been allowed to dine on ice cream for every meal.
[/quote]She reaches for a cigarette while fully aware of her resolve to smoke no more. I don�t think it is a childish act. I think such phenomena are a distressingly common feature of ADDICTION.
I�ve have learned[b] over 45 million Americans still smoke cigarettes although about as many have stopped smoking (mostly on their own). 80% of smokers would like to quit, 35% try each year but only 2-3% succeed. Nicotine is highly addictive, so there are many relapses. It usually takes several tries before the �habit can be kicked� (Curry, 1993). We smoke in spite of proven health hazards to ourselves and others, including cancer, heart disease, and 6-10 fewer years to live.[/b] So we have to �kick the habit� AND find/utilize alternative ways to �control the addiction.�
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Rusty, as you probably realized long ago,--eating, drinking, smoking--are often intimately tied with emotions.
You didn�t relapse, you �reacted�.
If it is true that [i]everything happens for a reason[/i] then let this be an opportunity (for us all) to connect the dots and find alternative ways to cope with [i]pain-rage.[/i]
[img]http://img324.imageshack.us/img324/3410/bullet18bn.gif[/img] We all need a plan for �mate hate� days. :eg:
~all the best
N2k ;)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/20/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 181
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,998
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $905
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 56 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28