In a blind rage last night, I picked up one of my husband's cigarettes and lit it. I was the one to break my own rule: don't let any person, situation or circumstance come between you and your quit. Well, I did. [b]It had nothing to do with a crave.[/b] I didn't even want it. In my extreme emotional state, I felt like I had to make a point and unfortunately that's what I chose. It related to the argument though. Once again, my husband threw into my face how miserable he is now that I've quit smoking. No, he didn't make me pick up the cigarette. I did that all by myself. I smoked about a third of it and then he started begging me to put it out, to not be stupid. So I did and then I went to bed and we haven't spoken since.
My point in telling you this is not to confess. I haven't gone back to smoking and I won't. I don't even feel that guilty. It is simply to say once again, don't let any person, circumstance or situation come between you and your quit. It's not worth it.
Rusty
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/13/2004
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 431
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 12,083
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1508.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 59 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 47 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15
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Quit Meter
$58,988.80
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 709
Hours: 18
Minutes: 36
Seconds: 15
Life Gained
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5672
Smoke Free Days
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226,880
Cigarettes Not Smoked
