You can all blame Lady....................she made the fatal mistake of encouraging me in her reply to my post yesterday. "Tell us a story" she said!
I've never been away with my family as an ex smoker. In fact, it's been 35 years since I travelled without my duty frees and lighter (what a frightening thought.......... :8o:)
Note the use of the term "ex smoker".
I personally believe that we are just that......smokers who choose never to smoke again.....that is why we can never have another puff. Anyway..........looking back on the holday, a number of things stuck me about the experience.
I have realised that I did not have to deceive my family or lie to them! I used to make all sorts of excuses to get away from them so that I could smoke (I used to pretend that I hid my smoking from the children, but they have noses!). I would go to the shops, ski off and get lost, pretend to go to the toilet or just wait for them to all go to bed so that I could choke myself.
In fact, the focus of my life was the next fix of the drug.
This year I have seen the chidren grow in confidence, noticed the Alpine scenery and generally enjoyed myself. I'm fitter and a much faster skier....................this is because I am several pounds heavier due to eating all the pies. Funny thing is that I don't care........summer is approaching and there's a lot of grass to cut and the gym to go to.
We had our share of problems...........jumping up and down on the tiny little wheel brace that comes with my car to try to change the puncture was amusing. I decided to get hold of the mechanic who had done up the wheel bolts with his air tool and throw him down a black run with no poles...........but the funny thing was that at no time did it occur to me to smoke to relieve the stress. The lesson of course is that bad things happen whether you smoke or not.
So at 140 days what have I learnt?
Stopping smoking has been the hardest as well as the best and most enjoyable thing that I have ever done (excluding that incident with my first girlfiend several decades ago :p)
Knowledge of what I was dealing with was fundamental.
Support from the people on this site was crucial.
The realisation that I was not giving anything up was a revelation.
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