Cuddles,
Been there, done that. Did it at 132 days, so I know EXACTLY what you're going through!!!!!! Trust me, I do! It sucks, but look at this as a chance for a new start. Don't look at what you've lost but at what you gained... you have learned a lesson (I hope) and with that knowledge, you can defend yourself the next time you are in a similar situation. Just remember how this feels... it sucks to lose your quit and it sucks to have to start over, but you now have the opportunity to pass your wisdom on to the newer quitters by joining the Ash Kickers (which is what I did with the Jokers, by the way) and they can learn a lot from your wisdom and advice because you've been there and you know what's going to happen and you can be a beacon of light for them.
All is not lost Cuddles... know that and understand that. Like Bubba said to me after I reset my meter 74 days ago... "A meter is a meter is a meter is a meter........" Please don't beat yourself up about this anymore. You HAVE to get back up and move forward. Best wishes in your new journey.
Crave the Quit!
Butterly [IMG]http://i27.photobucket.com/albums/c177/kissnflirt/littlebutterfly2.gif[/IMG]
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 74
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,872
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $244.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 27 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17
