Emotionally, yes, I think I've hit rock bottom. I lost my mother to cancer a year ago this month...wake up call? Oh yeah. My mother smoked all her life and although it wasn't lung cancer that claimed her, they say it was related to smoking.
Its taken me a year, and many attempts to get this far. Meaning I finally gave in and stopped being too proud to use extra help. I am attempting my quit on Jan. 13 - NO - I AM quitting on Jan. 13.
As a smoker I'm laden with guilt. I don't like myself very much for doing it, and feeling this way isn't much fun at all.
Maybe I should have kicked myself in the ass last January, but I used smoking as crutch to get over the death of my mother. I was very close to her.
So I am here, at this point, with help of Zyban and perhaps the patch, thinking of the hell my mother went through. A year later and a little stronger, I will be the non smoker I've always wanted to be.
Jan
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] -2
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0
