Megama, come on now...don't be down on yourself. Sounds to me you have learned a lot from this little experience. USE IT! Girl, I know you've got what it takes.
Keep yourself glued to this site for a while if you need to. Remember how absolutely awful in mind and body you felt after you had those nasty ol cigarettes. Think of what it would taste like to lick the bottom of an ashtray. Just to let you know, last night I was sitting at my pc, reading & posting to the SSC and I got a whiff of something...something nasty. I look over and there is a completely clean ashtray (I cleaned them all) with one measley butt in it (my boyfriend had a smoke the night before while we were fighting). I looked at it, my face smooshed up, and then I picked it up. What do I do next? I put the darn thing right up under my nose! It was the nastiest smell I can remember in a looooong time. Hearing what you went through after having those cigarettes...no way do I ever want to smoke that stuff anymore. Now you too know that those things are gross and nasty and they make us feel worse, not better.
Take a deep breath and get yourself back in these trenches with us!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/3/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 96
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $30
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2