Hi Penguin, you will remember me as the one who nearly chose to start smoking a couple of weeks ago when my boyfriend announced after months of occaisional smoking, that he was to become a full time smoker once again. Since his first serious relapse blamed on his mum's cancer scare at the end of last year, he has had such a love/hate relationship with smoking (detailed in my post "an addicts denial") and it has been incredibly confusing and emotional to live with him. Well I am back to calm now. A few days after I stopped the tears, sulks and tantrums, he has admitted the truth. He obviously feels a strong need to smoke but he doesn't enjoy it. Most of the time he doesn't just hate the idea of smoking, he actually doesn't even enjoy it. He hates the effect that his smoking is having on me. He feels tremendously guilty for upsetting me, wasting his money and risking his health. And finally, he is incredibly jealous of me for my success, but is also inspired by it, and is really going to go for it on his new quit date, 30th March. Whether or not he succeeds, I am not so bothered now that I know how he really feels. I feel immensely proud to have succeeded and you should too. I would bet anything that your husband is going through many of the same emotions as my boyfriend but won't admit it - he is worried to say he really wants to quit, because he is scared of failure, so he denies that he wants to quit.
Congratulations on your massive 100 smoke-free days in 2 days time!!!!!!!!
Best luck with your husband. Just know that any mention of smoking will probably make him want to smoke rather than stop. That's what I found anyway. Keep us updated anyway. I will probably need a bit of support again if boyfriend fails again cos I am really expecting him to succeed for some reason...
Celia
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/6/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 254
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,810
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1651
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 18 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56
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$100,509.20
Amount Saved
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Days: 4837
Hours: 8
Minutes: 46
Seconds: 58
Life Gained
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45686
Smoke Free Days
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182,744
Cigarettes Not Smoked
