Sob.. :( Luci, You broke my heart, I had a feeling things were not going so well for you. I kept telling myself it was you're new job that was keeping you from here and not that you had gone back to smoking. But I just had this feeling about it.
I know the tempation at work, it is horrible the grasp this addiction has on us. Like I've said before I work in a "smoking factory" and it is hard to try to stop with people smoking around you 8 hrs a day, the smell and sight of it. Some days it is repulsive and others it is just overwhelming that you want it.(I really wouldn't know why we would, but we do) It really is just the desire to not want to smoke all the time. We have been told on here several times from the "pros" N.O.P.E., It just takes one puff and it's over. As crazy has it sounds to me after all this time, 71 days now, I still would "love" to sit down and smoke a cig. But I won't because I don't want to do this all over again. You are brave, You are ready to do this again already. Just don't give in, don't let that nasty nicodemon win this time. It is hard for all of us, we all have our triggers and problems in our quits we just have to want it bad enough!! You have to beat this nasty addiction once and for all. I know from the past posts you want to and we will all be here to help you when or if you ask for it.
We can still be "quit pals" just with different dates now. You keep us updated. Good Luck and keep a positive attitude I'm on your side rooting for you!!!
Thanks for telling us your story.
(Sorry this one is another long one, you know how I ramble, I either don't say anything or I say everyting)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 71
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,850
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $461.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 52 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3